i'm gettin' crazy i think....

sometimes i cnt get wat am i doing , pretty damn boring here, but my head cnt get focuz to the music yesterday i'm getting abit hot actually. but wat cn i do all do to is juz get to bed and hv some sleep and have some sweet sweet dreams......arghhh......and tat'z the end of sunday night ..it'z kinda boring here, and i'm very happy tat 2moro thr's no classes for me hey......  i cn sleep the whole day..hahaha 2moro i need to go to sch again...and my exams are coming very quickly and i hv to study again ahhh...help me plz...

WAT CAN I DO?...I'M SO BORED...

Arghhhh... wat a boring day i'm going through nw....i hate tis....hw long cn i take it.....wake up early in the morney for classes i cn't stand it any more.....everyday i'll do the same thing again...repeat and repeat all over again nothing special....i will get crazy if i stay home all day...when i go outside i don't know Wat else cn i do....instead of eating and chatting with frens....ARGHHHHH.......and i wish i can get good result for all of my subjects....i hate accounting.....i swear after finish studying i'm not going t work in the office sitting there like a NERD and get low salaries i'll keep it for my own.....i have many planning sometimes ......and i'm so complicated too...hate it......get me out of here please....i know and i'm totally very clear wat am i doing ...all i need to do is study well get good result it's juz good for me...haha and finnaly i have juz complete my makeup coarse.i'm glad abt it... i'm so stressed sometimes...nobody knows...... okay i'm getting my ass off here....

I HV A FUN FUN DAY WITH MY FAMILY AND RELATIVES...........

EVERY year is the same thg i need to do...is just to follow my family to have a "reunion" in kk..... thx mummy and daddy to give every thg for me....and wat i ask for......i love u.....and i hv a vry satisfied shopping these few dayz...a crazy shopping for me although is nt tat much......hahaha i admit i'm a shophaholic...hehehe....... besides i did have a good relationship back with all of my family.... 2moro i'm going back to sandakan my hometown to celebrate CNY with my frenz...hahaha....i'm going crazy vry soon........hahaha I LOVE CNY....... and money COME COME foward to me....hahahhaha........

blah blah....

I wish tat the thgs i want i could settle it after i can get it.....y take it so long argghhhh...i'm nt used to wait too long....... anyway long time edi i dint post anythg here to share out my feelings here...aigh.... the thg i wish most is i hope i cn get it before CNY at least....T.T..... nothg special happen but i'm really satisfied wat i hv nw n whr i m nw........ wat cn i do is juz WAIT wat he says......arrghhhh....... haha anyway i hv a happy christmas n a happy new year.... i,m vry happpy tat i've gt a christmas present wit my boyfriend.....tis is all i share here..... many thg is waiting me to go foward to it ...god bless me and i love u mummy and daddy...

fuck u~~~.....

guyz is alll like tat kind of type......i really vry angry nw.......cz some ppl duno hw to do.....whn i'm feelin' si down and upsetv u should knw hw do do.....bt wat u knw is juz ask me whn u're steady tat means whn i am clear thn i talk to him...whn i juz wan somebody 2 sat so and i call bk u switct off the phone wat a fucker u are.....i think wat i did it for far for u...is all becz of U.....fucker......i hate u i hate u...i hope i will nt find u direactly/////.until u find me FUCKER......FUCK ...................CHIU JI BAI.....u are such a BASTARD.....i knw tat u are a MONSTER momomom MOSTER tat u are a monster/////// U ATE MY HEART.....dun talk like tat.... U     ATE MY HEART....... wat u knw hw do do is just knw hw to do me rite.....but in other ways do u knw abt my feelings fuck u...MONSTER........wat i wan actually do u understand....if somebody stood infornt of me tat is better thn  you i should hv picked tat somebody nt u.........wat u gb me......WAT DID YOU GB ME arhhhGGGHHHHHHH............. nvm is my mistake to chooose  you... if i regret nw...i wouldnt regret 4ever....cz i stilll gt a way to turn around for somebody not oni you...cz u're monster momomomomon monster...u're monster////////u ate my heart.....u ate my heart...

why are u people so stupid?.... whn i think back u guyz are vry funny....

HAHAHA.....wahahaha..........tat'z so funny y alwayz i'm the only one did so badly...y all of u think like tat.....wat i say is TRUE is REAL......not  talking bad abt u guyz ...OKAY... and i'm nt talking nonscence...i juz wan to say out and share out only tat'z all......if u dislikes u y dun y talk wit me....say a word u oso dint say....juz say WAT I WAN TO TELL I HV OREDY SAY.....once i start sharing it out in the middle u walk away.....OWHhh.......tat means u're vry vry wrong ....... WAKE UP PEOPLE.....i'm happy i hv moved away....no need to face u people all day . i cn do wat i wanted to do....hahaha i'm so free.... it'z nt such big deal...if i'm wrong tell me i'll change...actually i dint did anythg wrong....u tell me ,, even u scold me i wounldnt get angry , I DUN CARE..... if i care abt u PEOPLE again...arGHHHhhhhh i'm so so so stupid if i do tat....i'm more happier nw....i'm so free....the person to say sorry 1st is u, PEOPLE...... i hv say many times sry edi...so no need say too much.....u said u will talk wit me...but y wan to wait until i leave tat stupid house thn u say....cn u stay , stay in at least one month we cn slowly settle it...hey i'm not stupid PEOPLE......u all r so disgusting urhh..... u cn do wat u wan to do....the most important thg is wat u PEOPLE hv promise me....u must do it at least 2 MONTH , no excuse...u gt ur proplem i also gt mine too....so tat is ur proplem cnt get it involve in wat u hv promise me.......

please people......

i just dun knw hw to say it........i dont knw wan u guyz wan or wat r u thinking...y r u so childish....actually every thg is juzt a small matter y u guyz take it such a big deal...think everybody knws hw to think i knw...but sometimes think much more futher please.... people...arRRhhhh...i knw my character ,my style is like tat...but i knw i'm nt tat bad okay...?...if i feel tat somethg goes wrong wit u i will try my best to be ur fren.....i will nt say a word ,and i will nt judge u neither. so.......i cn stand tat....unbearable...arhhrr...if u talk bad obt me....i would care the 1st thg i do is i'll change my syself and gt used to it...i would nt scold u ...i never scold u guyz be4...i juz say it straightly...maybe u cnt accept hw straightly i was nvm..i juz say out the trust...sry i hurt u be4....i will try my best to be wit u guys...hanging out wit u guyz too..... anythg i do is for all the best of u all.....if u dun like me say out loud....i would nt be angry...cz i'm nt tat type of person....i will feel more better if u do like tat....dun be so evil sometimes.....u're evil thn i cn be more evil thn u if i wanted to do so.....i'm tis type of person....i dun wan thgs to get more complicated...i juz dun knw hw to explain it...say it.....if i dislike u i scold u tat mean u're worst.......cz i never do tat so.....one more fren...i dun wish we be best best frens....juz be frens....is bether thn i get one more enemy aroud me.....

my feelings...

I had a vry fun .... happy sunday here....in the morning v wake up vry early....and my frens too preparing to hv a shopping day .....v hv a lot of fun...actually...we're vry tired....but v still dint stop it...continueing in singing karaoke...so much fun...thank you for bring me here an d thr...i love u guyz...thx carol much.......hehe we hv transport.... thx mandy any yan yee.alwayz acompany me....thank you...... hehe i hv a kik face here.....i dont mind....cz every body is so happy....

feelings.........

Well i'm here to share out again.....i'm vry happy nw with my own life....i'm vry glad to make new frens...thx 4 giving me a chance...bless all my frens.....maybe mny ppl think bad abt me....dun say striaghtlly i'm a bad person...ppl will knw either i'm bad or good.....well time passes everythg change it;s real..one of my best frens told me....u're rite....some ppl are vry fake...wat they do they dint get it right..other wayz is alwayz my fault...hehe i hope nt......juz being myslef...i'm happy wit it...so u cnt judged me.... and i alwayz vry clearly knw tat wat am I doing.......well saturday i hv a happy and enjoyable dayz wit new frenz.......i love u all..... party people.kakakkaka

i'm grateful to hv u all here......

I'm here again share my feelings... i've been to kk nt kl on improving my make up skills.. it's really fun here with my new fren....all of them are sooo soooo CRAZY,, alwayz go out hv dinner 2gether hv fun 2gether..juz like a happy family... besides tat v juz live under one roof....of cz we do everythg 2gether....fren here in kk...really is wat i wan...alwayz stay happy 2gether.... i vry grateful 2 hv these kind of frens.... i will do all my best in everythg i hv started.... of cz i miss my family..my boyfren sometimes...at least i hv fren here.... i love u all.... evryday get up 2gether and take bus 2gether.... happy times..... here i will knw hw 2 take care myself do everythg by myself....i cn do it.... i'm vry happy my frens help me celebrate my b'day..... they gt buy some small thgs 4 me...
i'm juz vry happy .... although those thgs is nt expensive..but i was enough 4 me... i will appreciate it... besides tat they help me dye my hair... cut...everythg ... none charge... i really happy..... and i relly love my mum... wat she said is alwayz true...thx mum i will follow wat u say.....mum is the best,, and my naughty sister..... in my heart alwayz....my family..want the best 4 me.... thx 4 giving me a chance every time.... i hv everythg nw.... i'm happy....of cz i hv cut my hair be4 i gt here...short hair.... hahaha....and i hv happy time with my frens be4 i gt here...bless u all...although i dun knw or understand u all much.....is all i wan to share for 2day....

what am I going to do...

I'm back and nw i have my time to share out my feelings here ....... I have a bad results on my spm but i still can pass it so i'm vry gratefull ...... but it was abit dissapointed with those results ..... kakaka so what am i planning to do or going to do.... sometimes I though that it was okay bt i think not so because my parents are deciding wat am i going to do.... meanwhile i'll spend part of my time in sandakan maybe waiting the right time 4 me to go futhure studies or arRRR whatever..... i love being here having all my frens here 2gether go out crazy 2gether i vry miss that time actually because i've just started to find some new frens in my life maybe my personal or atitude is a problem but i will do my best , i know i can do it...... no frens in life are very boring.... so i will really appreciate it well... ErMMmaybe i'm getting my liscence this or next month..... after that planning 4 getting a brand new car.. i hope tat i will success... i will do my best... and i say to myself watever i wan i will get it ... i know i can ... everybody has his own problems .... what am i going to be ??? hErrrRRR i muz start plaaning about it..... i have  abd relationship with my father is almost about one year we dint talk but i'm happy havivg my mum beside me... everythg will not be impossible..... maybe my father helped me behind but i dint knw???......

who is tat fucker

I had been along time dint logged in my msn n facebook because Somebody had cracked into my facebook account and my msn~ i wonder WHO is it ~ why those ppl  was so stupid and alwayz stopped me frm everythg whn i was about to successed ~ 
bull shit, fucker~ i'm vry upset and angry that why some ppl wanted to do those childish actions plz stop it besides dun let me nw who is it or else i will take actions~ i say i will~ plz ppl who support me help me find out?? errRRRRR tis is juz to comfort myself... dun alwayz try to grabbed thgs beside me or i'm working hard on it plz ppl , or i will mention it are u so jealous about me????~no need to do like tat if u're jealous or envy me, use urself to proft it to me n and no showing small actions to me~ although i am very angry i'm glad tat i gt bk my friendship wit someone n i knw maybe we cn start it all over again so i will do my best~

By myself.....

Juz nw i had my lunch by myslef~going to bank in town to arrange somethg by myself again, walking around also by myself ~ i hope tat someone cn share everythg wit me ,shoppin wit me. bla la.....~ and i also knw everybody isnt tat free to companied me~ bt i found tat it is okay i hv been alone for quite sometimes my boyfren is working too but wat cn i do?? i'm happy tat i will be more independent like big ppl tis is all i cn do~

Happy chinese new year~ finally i hv time to write in my blog~ i dint hv time taking picss oni in 13.2.2010 i hv taken mny pic wit frens ~every nite hanging out almost 6am thn i arrive home ~ not enough sleep but its very fun mny fren hanging out wit me oso~hahahy dear brought me a rose whn the clock struckz midnite becz it was valentine's da~thanks dear~ besides tat v hv supper after clubbing its kind of hungry so ate alot kakaka after whn i arrive home got slept unti 2pm~ face get vry tired n eyes looks like drowsy men~ harhh~by the way vry fun during CNY` frens coming bk frm faraway hving gattering n enjoy 2gether but nw say bye bye cz they r going bk T-T by the way i'm very happy~

Alone in sdk~

My family had gone to kk 2day~ they will be coming bk on 16.2.2010~ bt i'm staying in sdk to celebrate CNY~ actually i'm planning to go too but they dint go earlier n they stay there too long , so i decide nt following them~ hahhaa besides tat i'm very happy to get my nail done ~ BLINGs i mostly like ~ i juz make it to be gold~new year mah ~ new style`>< !! kakaka i'm glad i cn make it 2day actually it was fully booked at last i cn make it~ n i gt a presant frm my mum too gold neclace~ hahaha she put it in my hand in tis morning whn she wake me up~hahaha thanks mum~ i love u~

haha hello kitty again~^^

I'm bak to share my diary again on 3.2.2010 ~ it was my 2nd annivesary ~ we juz hv a very simple celebration oni non make up on my face haha~ enjoying eating steak in the afternoon besides tat he brought me hello kitty pillow and a slipper for wearig inside the house~ very simple but i like it very much^^........another news was i hv juz finished those photo shootings so i cn relax again prepare more energy t invite CNY ~~ come on CNY ~~ besides tat thank you for my mum for letting me to take part in tat modeling shooting ,thank you 4 supporting me~ i'm so bleesed~ besides tat i wan to bless all my fren who also susseced oso~ hope tat we all can hv a very exciting
cny celebration 2gether coming up tis week~ tis was all i wan 2 share 2day~~

wat can i do??

Juz kind of boring nowaydayz~ i wan to make my hair once again n my nails becz all hv been spoiled becz of me~ 2moro is my 2nd annivesary wit my dear~ i wonder we hv been 2gether 2 years liao~  whn r we going 2moro?? we r v goig to eat?? i nned to buy thgs oso~ mny thgs i hvnt got it yet~ wat is going on 2moro i'm nt sure ~ do i hv any suprize ERmmm.... i dunt knw ** yesterday juz finish fashion shootngs is damn tired oso vry cloths akakka is type of fun too~ n i hope my dear successed to hv his own bussiness n i will hv a job~ plz god help me i believe in u~ anythng in me juz seems imcomplete ~~ help me pz my future hw is gonna be ~ i will plan it after CNY ~ i gonna get some relax nw~ online ,eating ,sleeping ,watching tv hahhh~ i hope tat every 2moro is a better start for me~